You know those times when God does something really cool and you can't help but smile and say thank you even though thank you really doesn't even begin to express how thankful you really are?
Right now I am in a weird situation. I am doing a lot of things and I have a lot of "jobs" but I'm not making a lot of money. I am by no means complaining about this, and actually I have been extremely blessed in what I am making and getting to do what I am doing. But the Lord has definitely been a part of it. And He is really teaching me to be completely and totally dependent upon Him in every area of my life.
A few years back I learned my lesson when it comes to finances. The money situation can be very stressful at times and can result in a lot of worry. God has taught me time and time again not to worry about money though.
There have been several situations where God has come through financially (as well as many other ways) in my life. There is one particular time though in which God blew me away and I was convinced and truly believed at that point that my God is a God who really does provide.
Urbana is a missions conference in St. Louis and the opportunity came for me to go on this trip with a friend. I am very into anything that has to do with missions so I was very interested. At the time though my job wasn't very consistent and I could never count on a steady paycheck. And when I did get a full paycheck it was hardly anything due to not getting many hours.
So I prayed a lot. Of course I really wanted to go, but I told God that I didn't want to go just because it was something I wanted to do. I wanted to go but only if He really wanted me to be there. I didn't want to be there on my own selfish terms. My parents weren't exactly thrilled that I was even considering spending the money (it was a bit pricey) when they knew I wasn't making much. So I prayed some more...a lot more. I was convinced that I was in fact supposed to go on this trip. And it was because God told me to go. So I said yes.
Once I said yes I found out that the church I was going to - keep in mind I hadn't been going there but for a couple of months if even that at this point, they were offering to pay so much of my way to go. I don't remember now the specifics but I do remember it being a pretty good portion of what was needed. A week before leaving on the trip though I was still short some money to pay for my share of the hotel room, gas money, and food while I was there.
I remember I was stressing about what I was going to do and my mom asked me how the finances were coming for the trip. I had a freak out moment. I broke down and started crying. In the midst of the crying I started praying. "God I don't understand how you can tell me to go on this trip but yet not provide the money." And then I realized I was being ridiculous. I was taking matters into my own hand, stressing myself out, and I was doubting God. So we chatted it out and I came to the conclusion that it was silly to worry about it, God had it covered, I needed to stop doubting Him. I knew without a doubt that he wanted me to be at that conference so I finally said "Alright God. You will come through somehow someway...I'm trusting you."
Wow...boy did He come through.
The next week I received 3 different checks, all were very unexpected! I don't remember where they all came from even. I know one of them was a bonus at work that I had no idea was coming (It was around Christmas time). I think I randomly received money from someone...maybe in a Christmas card or something? I'm not sure. All I know is I went to Urbana with enough money.
And guess how much I came home with?!! I had exactly $1.00 left. God had come through. And I was even able to buy the CD from the conference and a Starbucks drink. :) He provided in every way and more.
Since then, the Lord has always continued to come through for me in every way...and not just financially.
And he just keeps doing it!
Last Sunday I spoke at my church and after the service someone came up to me who I don't really know very well other than what her name is. We said a few words, she shook my hand, and she had something in her hand that she was putting in my hand. I looked down to see what it was...there sitting in my hand was $20.00 bill.
I was so in shock, I know I didn't give her the proper thanks that she deserved. What an unexpected blessing that was. It was just God reminding me once again that He really does care, He knows my needs, and He is a God who provides. I know this to be true not because of stories I have heard from other people (although I do love hearing those kind of stories), but I know that to be true from how He has come through in my life personally in so many ways I can't even list.
Whatever you may be struggling with today, whatever worries you may be consumed with, any financial concerns you may be burdened with... take them to God. He truly does care for you, and He is a God who provides.
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