i'm a shuffler....

I feel like the past couple of weeks have been full of decision making. And none of them have been the easy decisions. I mean sure I have made decisions like what to eat for lunch, should I wear a t-shirt to class or actually where a somewhat dressy shirt, should I straighten my hair or wear it curly...or more like wavy in my case, should I eat cereal or a pop tart for breakfast....

I could go on and on. The funny thing is....I do struggle with these decisions occasionally. I can be very indecisive sometimes. Just ask any of my friends. I don't even have a favorite color because I can't choose just one color. haha.

But the decisions I have been faced with are a little bit more complex than what to eat for breakfast! I'm talking living situations, future situations (what the heck do I want to be when I grow up?!). And let me just clarify....my major IS business....it has not changed again! And I am enjoying my classes! It's just a matter of trying to figure out what area I want to concentrate in....accounting, marketing, management, admin, or just general business. Oh the decisions....they just never end.

I have been so confused though as to what to do, because I feel like in all of them I just keep going back and forth, back and forth. I'm not leaning more to one side than the other kind of thing. I just feel like I am literally stuck in the middle and don't really know which way I am supposed to lean. I am praying the Lord would give me direction...but as a few of my friends have said, sometimes God just wants us to take a step out in faith and trust Him. He doesn't always make everything picture clear and tell us exactly what our next step should be. If only it were that easy! :)

But....if it was that simple, I guess maybe life wouldn't be so fun?! I am discovering that I am a spontaneous person. I was talking to Ariona about music. Our favorite cd right now is the new david crowder band's LAST cd ever that is called Give us Rest. It is so great. That is just about all we have been listening to recently. Anway, she was trying to explain a song to me from the cd. She was telling me the song it came after to help me know what song she was talking about. Well....I am a shuffle kind of gal. Just about always, my iPod is on shuffle. Whether it is shuffling through all my songs I have on my iPod, or a certain cd, I just like not knowing what song is coming next. For me, it's not as fun when I know what song is coming next.

I think that can relate to my life in general. I love not knowing what is coming up. I LOVE surprises. When my iPod is on shuffle, each time a new song starts playing is a surprise! I love it! :) I like adventure. Sure I like to have some order and schedule to my life....but not as much as other people.

Side note: I am kind of worried about moving into the "real" world and having a "big kid" job. I just feel like I will have a hard time staying at a job for more than a couple of years. I'm sure that as long as I find that job I love I will be able to. It's just hard to imagine being at a job for even 2 or 3 years!

Back to the "shuffle" idea... I guess I need to look at these decisions in that perspective. It's jumping into the unknown. Another adventure I get to go on. Whether that means I completely change my path, or stay where I am, who knows! But until then, I will just keep praying for guidance. I just want to go where the Lord leads me. And if that means staying exactly where I am right now, then so be it! I would love to! But if He has somewhere else for me to go....then I will take that leap of faith....I will push the shuffle button and change it up a little! ;) haha. Clever I know....:)

Here are some pictures from tonight. We were downstairs eating dinner/talking....Ariona, Mirah, Rachael, and myself. Passion (the conference in Atlanta) came up and Ari, Mirah, and I were telling Rachael how we made a lot of "oreos" while there! I think you will understand what I mean when you look at the pictures below! :) Rachael pointed out we were making a double stuffed oreo...so me being me, had to pull out the camera! Yay for self-timer!

Double stuffed oreo! :)
Mirah, me, Rachael, and Ariona

I love this girl so much! Andddd this is our first picture together!  Yay!

Me, Ariona, and Rachael. And Aaron creeping in the back!

And this is what we call an uh oh oreo! :)

Chi Alpha was awesome tonight! Great speaker. Great worship. Great people.

After Chi Alpha.....so fun! Good conversation and lots of laughter. Laughing is my favorite thing!

:)